The Inner Child and Growing Up

I'm finding myself two weeks out of work and still not in a happier place with Korea or Koreans. In fact, if anything, I am finding myself more frustrated and irritated. I am almost certain that this has to do with the fact that somewhere in my mind the words "it's been a year, contracts up, let's get the heck OUT of here!" keep rattling about. Funny how you can tell yourself something, like almost bribe yourself--"If you just stick it out this long, go this far, do just this much, then I'll give you a treat, a present, a prize!!"--and even though plans change along the way, some part of you still holds on to that original promise. I think that's what I'm doing. I want my damned prize please! I've put in my time and I'm ready to travel!

Silly little inner child, hush and sit down and be still. You know as well as anyone that plans have changed and you're just gonna have to hold your horses, as my mother used to say. Traveling's not going anywhere, last time I checked.

So in traditional Korean fashion, these two weeks have both flown and crawled by. I feel like I haven't accomplished much of anything, yet the time has still melted away.

Since finishing at GEV there has been a nice day of rest, a few days of lessons, errands, and tasks, a trip to Seoul for some birthday fun, more lessons, rescheduling of lessons, changing of lesson times, sorting out payments, a full week of workouts, a handful of rainy days, some REALLY windy days, visitors from Busan, lots of foreigners on the beach, some rumors spread and revealed (about/to me), and adjustments made on both Steve and my parts on the new living situation. I have also had to take moments to be thankful and appreciative, quiet and still, and just in a general sense, soothe the child within that wants so badly to be out of Korea and on to what was promised 12+ months ago.



I've also had moments of feeling very distant from those I once felt so close to, no matter the amount of measurable space between us. To say the least, Korea has been yet another huge opportunity for me to see growth, and reveal areas that require more growth, in and for myself. Good thing I've got some extra time on my hands to work on that.